I always find it amusing
looking back at how
I saw the world as a kid,
…. as opposed to
how I see it now.
Not that I’ve learned anything,
but it’s still funny.
Squirt was my favorite soda in the sixties–
And, it never occurred to me at the time
that the name of that soft drink
would make me laugh every time
I heard it when I grew up,
— although it always did seem
to have a vaguely ribald undertone….
I dunno if many of my readers
remember the furor caused
by a little Swedish film back
in the late 1960’s called
“I Am Curious, Yellow” —
It was one of those films that,
despite having very little
‘objectionable’ material in it,
…. was a source of much controversy
and consternation on the part
of a large group of American blue noses–
Mostly referred to as part of the:
Don’t get me started
on that whole MM malarkey.
I was just a kid
during that time,
and the movie was rated
‘R’ in some areas, I guess…
But I did manage to sneak
into the local Warner Theatre,
( there was this back door
at the Warner that was NEVER locked —
and I could never figure out why
EVERYBODY didn’t just go in that way )
— to see all the hot sex
and nasty violence I had heard so much about.
……….. another disappointment.
It seemed to me as a kid
that adult entertainment during the 1960’s,
— was more about–
a tiny amount of titillation
followed by a big hunk of:
non-event and frustration.
Maybe that’s why that generation liked
and Betty-Page-in-Bondage so much.
as I’ve gotten older,
I’ve not only gotten used to the whole anti-climactic thing,
but I’ve come to understand it and embrace it —
symbolically and practically.
And that’s a major accomplishment
for a guy with the patience level of a rutting moose.
It might have something to do with hormones, I guess.
When you’re 15,
everything is better NOW ,
RIGHT FUCKING NOW .
Remember the song “Chevy Van” ?
It was a song about a guy
appreciating just how beautiful,
and utterly lovely,
a hitchhiker he picked up was —
And how he proceeded
to boink her in the back of his van,
and then dump her in some Podunk town.
Talk about ‘anti-climactic’ .
But you see,
…. that’s what it’s all about when you’re young —
You’re not really thinking about anything else …
The ‘value-added’ stuff —-
— lingerie, even —
Just doesn’t seem to matter.
RELEASE is all that seems important.
But you see,
release is only really good,
…. if there’s also resistance to release.
In weightlifting terms–
Strength + Control = Power .
And you only learn that kinda stuff through experience.
It reminds me of something my grandfather told me,
when I was about 15,
…. after watching me INHALE a glass of champagne,
at some otherwise forgotten holiday meal.
” Christopher —
You sip the finer things in life,
so you can enjoy them —
— you don’t glup them down,
so you can’t even taste them .”
I don’t think he was talking
about the same thing I am now,
…… but maybe he was.
his generation was much smarter
than I ever gave them credit for.